Interlude
You may ask, dear reader lost in space, what has all this (The return of the V˙GER) to do in a money, power, debt driven economy and which is the connection to other things in this blog? Well, the first conclusion is, that the economic postulate of the rational expectations and the rational behavior of the people is just bollocks, or at the best it is framed in a frame of a person seemingly consequent with a kind of cause and effect, loosely logical as a person can be and thus limited to more or less nothing basic on which one can build a rational theory of expectations in a global market. To cut it short, it is all nonsense or or a very faint path to understand the economy, the world and the people. Just sack them, all of this highly paid fortune tellers called experts on economy, society or whatever.They are there to mislead, that is why more they mislead, more they are paid.Most of them, it is up to you to pick the real.Follow the monies and you will get the real news.
This true story, as ones memory can afford,is a parable of the Voyager. A Voyager, which, after many ups and downs returns as a V`ger. The famous Star Trek movie, Voyager being there the satellite launched in space bearing some signs of intelligent thinking of the Human Parasite,the satellite which came back transformed.
It is now more then 3 and a half decades when this story has happened.. Witchdoctor memory of the events is fading and that is why he waited so long to tell it ( or he just felt it that now is the time). Only the core, the hard burning core remains the same and that is why, after so long, Witchdoctor can tell it, because the memory tricks have not altered the essence. The essence stays and shines.
The Road
Witchdoctor was relatively young at that time, studying for his own sake many subjects, at the universities, at home…. around…traveling.. it was core philosophy, religion, physics,science philosophy, he started to peek into economics (that came much later as a tool) the theories of the Self, buddhism dialectics, Zen and you name it..He was not looking to make any gain out of it, to make a career out of,not for the monies, just curious. All of this seemed all logical and the theories were seeming consistent and he was having fun.
But all this was not looking true enough or decisive to understand, To get the Final Answer of the WTF is this all about.So he started to climb regularly to the WTFis this Mountain. The WTF is This Mountain has no path, nor a road. It lies not far from the Debt Mountain, but it is in a distance, depending on the clear day. It may be any Mountain near to you ,you just have to start climbing.
And Witchdoctor climbed, not every day but often, especially the weekends when he had time. It took some hours to reach the top. The views were fine, space, sea, cities, sun,wind ,rain. He stayed there for hours, a night, few days, Sun rain shine wind whatever.
He came prepared. It was all in the line of a classical tradition of the persons detaching, going to the Mountain and taking time to think it over.But he was not coming to be dictated a Book or to settle some tribal disputes, or to get some Laws , or being illiterate get the Verb or try to hear voices. He was waiting, to see and understand…He was thinking there about anything, the systems, celestial bodies,physics, demographic explosion, proliferation of the humans and of the cities, the circles of it all, the possible outcomes, hypothesis on everything and conclusions which came and tumbled down in dust, the time passing the time space enigma the position of oneself in it and the consequences of the point of view in a box or outside of it…
Sometimes he just sat down thinking nothing, trying not to think or letting go and feeling the Flow of the Dao-Tao or whatever, concentrating on the subject and deconstructing, the classical ways of meditating or just feeling his aching back, dissecting his inner drives and the Self,to wish or not to wish, to move or not to move, the measure and it significance, the far and the near…the space time enigma..
All this things which seem to make life and all.
The Revelation
One day, sunny and a little windy, he was there. Just like any other day. He was half lying in the grass on the top of the WTF is this about Mountain. Just looking at the sky and the sea. Some hours passed. Suddenly he felt a “presence”. It was tangible , it was there, it was not a person with the beard, it was not a point in time and space ,no light, it was much, much more. Witchdoctor was absolutely calm, relaxed, no thoughts, at this time when he felt, acknowledged certain this ”It”. The presence or ,if you prefer, The Presence. Awake and overwhelming. Live or dead ,conscious or unconscious? No way of describing it, It was, or, It is. Witchdoctor was taken by surprise. Surprise is not the right word, anyway, startled? Boh? He just waited… and then he put a question, not knowing what to do; What or Who are you? The answer came, it was not spoken loud or spoken or whatever, but it came; It is You.
Holy Cow! Holy WTF! It is difficult to put it in words, but!!! And the answer was Wrong!It was wrong because it defied ALL the expectations.Theologically wrong, wrong from what the history has told, wrong from what Witchdoctor has read about this events in time and history!Wrong!?
Now, mind you, reader, Witchdoctor did not ask ; Who am I ?,and got back the silly answer; You are. It would have been a psychiatric case, a nutter job. The Who am I question was far beyond Witchdoctor thinking, the Self was well understood and explained by the metaphor of peeling the onion, where the layers peel and peel and you cry in the process and come to nothing. No go, the question of the Self was not in the purpose of the search.So, this answer, You; was not what one should expect.
Suddenly the implications of the answer came as shock. The ball, the search, the all of it was back in the Witchdoctor field. The Presence, the “It” has nailed him. Completely.There was no question left, No way out, No way to curb or bend or rephrase.No repeat of the search, no other premises. It was over. It was like a push, a blow, game over. Witchdoctor was left, there, taking in the consequences, as much as he was capable of, which at the end was not much.
3 and a half decades have gone by. It is getting more clear and the answer is that it all comes down to the projections and suppositions, prejudices or whatever one carries with when faced with the presence. Witchdoctor fortunately did not carry loads of stuff in him when climbing the WTF is this about Mountain. He , in the process, discarded, threw away loads and loads, refining the search, getting lighter and lighter and so his projection of his load was really slim when this happened. Yes, it is;
WYSIWYG
A famous saying for calibrating the Monitor or working with any software comes useful.What you see is what you get.WYSIWYG. You get what you bring and if you bring loads of shit you get shitty answers, no one can save you from misunderstanding. More you make mess , more junk you carry back. It is a threefold dilemma; did you understand and how do you interpret, and how your being is calibrated. All three are non solvable problems, the beauty is in the eye of the observer at the end.Understanding is finally impossible,it is not only IQ, education and prior beliefs, it is more when an illiterate persons faces something so”big” which is definitely out of reach. The Illiteracy can be deep or less deep, but it is an insurmountable, insuperable obstacle.So, what a simple shepherd , or a warrior or some half crazy person gets back in such a case? He gets what he understands , He translates what he thinks he saw or heard or whatever in his own lingo,in his framework, in his power/ glory game. And, on top of it, he starts to interpret already translated and interpreted.Or, this is done by somebody else, after, or much after or by hearsay. One can not escape the First Principle; the Contradiction.
But Witchdoctor is sure, he got it, it was simple, it looked simple and it was terrible. And it was a Contradiction.
He still thinks he was good calibrated, there are no signs of a mistake, and the “answer” is logical,very. He did not need to interpret and it was hard not to understand or to make a book out of it, or to ….
The Limit
Dear reader, the story was not over. When the Presence gave the answer;You;
and when the ball was pitched back to Witchdoctor with full force and was meant to stay there for ever, the inner Self drive started to seek the way out, by force. The way out was and configured itself in the thought; so, from now on, Witchdoctor can do whatever he wants? Surely, Witchdoctor at the time was not thinking in this whatever one wants that it includes killing in the name of, a kingdom, getting very reach, cheating, or whatever very personal earthly gain. He was on the WTF is this Mountain where this pleas and similar Ego trips are not allowed.Do not know what Mountain the others went to and after killed or conquered In The Name Of, but it is not the same Mountain.
The result of the drive to do whatever he wants in this revelation was terrible. The drive of the Timeless Id, the trickery of the instinct of preservation which wants to prevail and overcame all, led to a complete standstill. Here, from this point on, the story can not and will not be precise.It relies on the feelings. But it is a kind of feeling as the thought is, you know, the mind/thought is just one of the senses.
The counter push, as was in retrospective the one Witchdoctor did after the ball was back on his part,, was strong. But the result was really scary. The Time/Space got,in a way, suspended. Well , not suspended, it was more like moving imperceptibly or moving within but on the verge of.Floating in a verge of, moving without the signs of progressing…
Time /Space is explained by moving, without moving there will be no measure to establish anything. But moving from A to B is just a very localized way to understand the Time/Space.
On the other hand, the Self needs to move in the Time Space, if not it enters the “conscious”coma level. Zazen and more. So, the experience of the counter push of the Self with almost no counter effect than the “suspension” of Time/Space was hard.
In retrospective, Witchdoctor experienced himself on the event horizon, with apparently no marks to confirm the momentum. There were no landmarks to confirm the prior status, all of it was kind of floating on the verge of, but without showing of the line of continuum. Reaching the black hole, floating on the event horizon, except that the black hole was not black, it was just a place without the marks.Dissolving. Just the body breathing as a sign of life and space and time.How it was? The Presence was “on” and Witchdoctor was, hmmmm, there, not there, not here, not there, and not here and there, and not not here and not not there,, anyway he decided after god knows how much time he saw enough and there was nothing more to “see” because he will not see it anyway, he will just float and float and …
He “went back”. But in order to establish the coordinates he had to get curious, meaning he had to ask himself what comes “after” and so get the situation back in movement ,the old Time /Space continuum. Back to Time /Space as he knows it. He got the answer on the question that he can do whatever he wants. It was a Wrong Question. He was bound and binded, for ever.. He went home slowly from the top of the WTF is this about Mountain and drank a liter of fruit juice in a second.
The Timeless Id
It Is this what is getting typed and believing it matters or anything, it is the trick you think you are immortal and there is hope or life or whatever and it keeps you thinking an believing you are immortal the time on you hands for ever and it is a “black hole”, a metabolic of your mind and Self where the raw data like trillions of empty bits flow back and you fill them with “meaning” while sending the trash of the Self on the event horizon to sink back to the black hole and refloat back in empty bits of information ready to be filled again and again and you feel fine.or not and you keep tricking yourself but that is life and fun. Just a trick, Keep in mind, it is there and take care, do not forget an you can not do anything you want even if the Timeless Id says so, you can do only what you can but beware, you are not alone.
And if you are evil, a person of no purpose and meaning trying to pull others in your game,, there is the self defense the other has the right to practice, many ways to do it. We know your Timeless Id.
PS: what utilitaristic one gets out of this? The Insight and the Structure, at least some of it, the other is private.
And the certainty that the human behavior is not rational and the rational expectations are bound in a framework which is hard to decipher.